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"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" ~ Mary Oliver

Category: Life & Spirit

“cabbages and kings” . . .

a reclaimed wood-fired soy bottle with sprigs of dill from herb planter

a reclaimed wood-fired soy bottle with sprigs of dill from herb planter

In the grocery store today, there was a single half napa cabbage for sale that looked pretty tired. I spied the vegetable grocery clerk and walked over to ask him if they had any more in the back. At first when I said, “hi” – he looked at me and said nothing. I said “hi” again and smiled this time. He said “hi” but looked glum. With a reluctant posture and very slow gait, he walked into the back to see if there were any more cabbages.

I waited by the door so as not to have him think I had forgotten about my request. He came out with two bedraggled cabbages and asked me which one I wanted. I asked him if he would cut one in half for me and pointed to the one that was lighter in weight. He said yes and went back to do the deed.

When he came out, I smiled at him and said, “You’re a doll,” and he smiled very briefly and said, “I wouldn’t go that far.”

Made my day!

a mother’s love (?) . . .

“Ricki and the Flash” – a movie opening August 7th in which Meryl Streep plays an aging mother who left her family to be a rock musician. Kevin Kline plays her ex-husband, Audra MacDonald plays his wife and Mamie Gummer plays Meryl’s daughter (as in real life too.)

In the trailer below, someone says, “It doesn’t matter if your kids don’t love you. It’s not their job to love you. . . It’s your job to love THEM.” Ah, a universal truth mothers know all too well. And a second universal truth: “Sometimes a girl just needs her mother!”

Get Ready to Rock. Get Ready to Roll. Get Ready for Ricki! Watch and share the brand new trailer for Ricki And the Flash which rolls into theaters on August …
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“forty-love!” . . .

Wimbledon Champion Novak Djokovic invited Wimbledon Champion Serena Williams to dance together at the Champions’ Dinner last night. She chose the music, “Night Fever” by the Bee Gees – and they are very charming together – take a look:

 

 

 

a “morning poem” . . .

a tiny fallen rose & heuchera sprigs . . .

a tiny fallen rose & heuchera sprigs . . .

“my life belongs to me” . . .

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Charlize Theron (in June, 2015 issue of ELLE, UK magazine):

“For me, the greatest success of my life, and something that I am really proud of, is that through my career, or through love, or through friendships, or through relationships – I have lived my life authentically to me, . . . Meaning, I take full ownership in all of my decision-making. And some of it was really bad, and some of it was really good. But I’m most proud of that – that my life belongs to me.”

Isn’t it comforting when we can individually take responsibility for our lives?

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ballet! . . .

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A cornucopia of ideas has arisen from reading the New York Times this rainy Sunday morning. In the 1960’s, I was fortunate to attend most of the New York City Ballet’s performances while George Balanchine’s works were performed by his hand-picked ballerinas in their prime: Suzanne Farrell, Patricia McBride and Kay Mazzo.

I was reminded of that era while reading a long feature article about Sara Mearns this morning. At the end of the article, it describes a summer visit by the Company to Saratoga Springs in July wherein numerous Balanchine ballets will be performed. In reviewing the calendar, I noticed that there will also be performances of “Goldberg Variations” a ballet set to one of my favorite pieces of music by Bach, choreographed by Jerome Robbins in mid-July.

Looking at the map, Saratoga Springs is about a two and-a-half hour drive from my doorstep. Highway driving and manageable – it’s twice as far as driving to Northampton and I do that easily numerous times a year.

So, I’m tempted to take a mini-vacation to visit this area and see a couple of ballet performances. Who knew that something so luscious and enjoyable from my past could be within reach a few hours from home this summer?

‘old fogeys’. . .

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James Salter, a “writer’s writer” died last week at the age of ninety. Accolades written about him repeatedly talked about how beautiful his writing was and that in spite of it, his books were not best sellers, nor was he known as widely as he would have liked. I wondered why that was and borrowed a novel and autobiography from the library.

It’s always interesting when people talk about “technique” whether it’s in writing or in playing the piano, for example. Technique is what you learn when studying an instrument so that you develop facility and consistency in the way that you play the notes. That’s only the beginning, however, because there are as many different techniques as there are pianists. Playing scales, double-thirds, Czerny and Cramer exercises are all tools toward developing technique when playing the piano.

The thing is, being facile and playing evenly or with endurance is not even the half of it. Playing music so that it speaks to the listener is the endpoint one strives for after learning years of technique. It’s similar to what they say in sports – when you’ve got it mastered, then you can let go and just enjoy yourself. So while technique is great to have, it’s only a part of the “have-to-haves.”

Apparently, James Salter had it in spades. His sentences are interesting, varied and have rhythm. I enjoyed reading parts of his books. What I discovered in perusing both of them is that they are in large part autobiographical and moreover, they reflect a lifestyle of his social strata – well off, and hobnobbing at restaurants and parties with many of his peers in New York, Paris and wherever they travelled. Meals and what they ate reflected a period in time when certain foods were fashionable. There wasn’t any fusion cooking there.

And that’s where I reflected on why his books had not become more popular: they weren’t because they didn’t appeal to a broad spectrum of readers, just a narrow one similar to his own background and life experience. This is when I began thinking about “old fogeys.” He wrote about what he knew but I don’t know if he was aware of how ensconced he was in the half century he wrote about constantly. His descriptions were similar to stories written by Louis Auchincloss, John Cheever, and most of all, John O’Hara. Men wore hats, women wore fur coats, they all smoked and drank a lot. Many of them had affairs. That was the social milieu of those writers.

Salter’s books were similar, I couldn’t really tell if his writing was better. I had read Cheever and especially O’Hara when I was in college and that was a long time ago – about times that were distant in time from when I read them too. That got me thinking about how we might think about ourselves, our habits and our lives at our age. That is, that naturally, we might only look through the prism of the era and the age that we lived through – not necessarily even in the present, and definitely not different for the future, whatever that might be.

And that’s my point. If we decide to be “old fogeys” about what we think about and how we think about it, we’re hopelessly living in a time-capsule of our own making. Things have to be just so this way. Or, things can’t be different in that way. Because that’s the way we’ve always been used to things. OMG! I don’t want to be stuck in an era like Salter’s books.

That doesn’t mean that I’m trying to act like a Millennial, not that I could figure out what that was. But, for the first time, I’ve actually realized that there are true generation gaps no matter how spry you might think you are mentally. We ARE a product of our generation. And if we don’t watch out, that’s all there will be until we croak unless we recognize that we might be shutting down.

So, I decided to shake it up, or shake it off (according to Taylor Swift’s song) and to become more aware of either being complacent without realizing it, or being so habituated to patterns that life becomes boring and uninteresting, to put it mildly.

I’m not sorry that I read Salter’s writing. I wanted to understand what his life was like. And I think I have a pretty good idea from reading about him online and reading his books. He had a good life. He was lucky too to have married someone who was good for him and loved him to the end.

But there’s an awful lot written about writing as “craft.” And I think it’s overrated, to be honest. In music, I’ve listened to plenty of pianists who played musically and with genuine feeling, communicating with the audience. And their technique was not barn raising either. I’ve also listened to lots of technical pyromaniacs who set the piano on fire with their technique but you didn’t really care if you listened to anything they played or not. So, technique doesn’t get you there. It helps, but it isn’t the magic potion that accounts for concert bookings, book sales nor lofty reputations.

This little exercise of reading and reflection has moved me to think about the hat that I’m always wearing, to take it off and to look around for other caps to try on. It’s never too late, they say. And it’s time to shake it off, shake it up or go back to bed.

 

a “new” normal . . .

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Last night, it rained so hard that it woke me up. I walked around silently closing the windows all around the house. It was an interesting night because I found myself dreaming what felt like a very long saga of a melodrama about changing patterns. As with many dreams, it was vivid at the time and harder to remember the blurry edges now that I am awake. Suffice it to say, it was vividly about changing patterns, sequences and designs of layouts in a fantasy world of characters I did not recognize and at the same time, felt like myself.

When I woke up (a second time,) I felt that the Universe had shifted slightly and that the dream’s gestalt had permeated my consciousness – at least I remembered its energy as being very positive at the same time that it was challenging me, as if to pose an important question. Yes, I said to my inner self. Instead of looking at health issues as the glass half empty, it’s time to look at the broader context of our lives as brimming with all good things that we worked hard for and which we may now enjoy together.

A case in point is an experience G. and I shared last night while watching a documentary of the Polish pianist, Piotr Anderszewski, filmed by Bruno Monsaingeon, a master producer of intimate, poignant films about famous musicians, notably of Sviatislav Richter, near the end of his days. I observed as the film progressed, how intently G. listened to the music he played. In parallel, I also listened intently to a young man (at the time) who was difficult to watch sometimes in his facial expressions, but whose playing was infinitely musical. In a way, it was a paradigm of the kind of intimacy that we share in our married life together: individual reactions, yet shared at the same time – and in the end, compatible in the assessments we make separately when we discuss them later on. It is a rare thing, I think – and each time it happens, I am touched by it.

In any case, I messaged a pianist friend of ours about the documentary to let him know about it and he returned almost immediately with a Youtube clip called “Technique Doesn’t Exist!” featuring one of our favorite pianists, Maria Joao Pires. It turned out to be almost an hour long so we’ll watch it together this evening. The opening of the Pires clip showed her and one of her star pupils playing Schubert’s well known Fantasie in F minor, four hands together on the same piano. This is a piece that I’m familiar with, having played it with others and also listening to Radu Lupu and Murray Perahia go at it in one of my favorite recordings. It gets a little bombastic in the middle but that’s the way it goes.

In an interview online, Anderszkewski related that in Warsaw during Chopin competition years, the local populace’s passion for it was similar to ours with football. In fact, he recalled in 1957, that his Aunts got into such a disagreement about who played Mazurkas the best that they stopped speaking to each other for weeks! His sister, Dorothea, is an accomplished violinist who is a concertmaster of one of the major orchestras in Poland. The pressure to practice at an early age coming from their strict father has obviously been rewarded by two ardent musicians who enjoy each other’s company musically as well as being siblings.

All of this, the changing pattern dream-like message, the music we witnessed separately and together last night and the cool, rainy Sunday morning that we are enjoying with our coffee this morning has made me realize that in fact, it’s time for a change. With an all-day rain predicted for today, I’ve decided that tomorrow would be good timing to transplant a bed of a half-dozen dark red day lily plants from a side plot that has been shadowed by trees to a sunny front garden which has successfully evaded a permanent planting of perennials so far because previous attempts have been unwittingly mowed down by mistake every summer up to now.

With the soaking rain today, it’ll be easy to weed the front plot, add some loam, dig up the daylilies which are robust and healthy and transplant them while the ground is soft and yielding. Maybe this time, after mulch is added, I’ll pick up a little plastic picket fence divider as a boundary to protect it until the transplants get established.

Most interesting is the strong impulse to play the piano again today. To review and enjoy some of the pieces that we played for each other twenty years ago: the second movement of a Mozart sonata, Bach partitas and even perhaps some Chopin ballades and mazurkas!

Life can indeed be seen as a glass half empty or as one that is half full. Ours is the latter and it only takes a little prodding every once in awhile to renew that perspective and enjoy our good fortune. With thanks and gratitude to the Universe which moves in mysterious ways and to a family whose understanding and love is appreciated every day.

NBC et al. . .

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photo from NBC news media

A fresh update on Brian Williams’s fate appeared in the NYTimes today:  NBC will retain Brian Williams on MSNBC, its cable TV news station, but has solidified Lester Holt as its primetime announcer. The article was based on hush-hush, off-the-record information from confidential sources not at liberty to be quoted. Nevertheless, it’s a “leak” that will test the winds of public opinion before an official announcement is made later this week.

To the over 200 comments that followed this article, I added this one: 

“Wipe all the judgment aside. This is a cold-blooded business decision and a politically astute one too, it seems to me. MSNBC has been floundering for quite some time and where else to give Brian Williams a probation period to prove that he can do something else besides read the teleprompter and embellish himself in editorial comments? NBC has nothing to lose (except perhaps poor Andrea Mitchell who deserves a safe haven somewhere at NBC and not under Brian Williams, God forbid.) Plus, it puts Williams on ice as it were, as mentioned in the article, so that he doesn’t move to another network, spill more NBC dirt, or try to compete with NBC. Very smart move – Solomonic, even.

Let’s see what they do with Lester Holt’s succession queue too – Savannah Guthrie appeals to women, Millennials and would retain older viewers too. Her appearance this week has been refreshing even as we acknowledge that Lester Holt has lightened his anger and trimmed his physique to stay the course for NBC after Brian William’s public hara-kiri on screen.

The only reason we’ve watched NBC is not who reads the news, but that their news organization actually goes to places that matter and shows more in-depth coverage than the People-Magazine human interest stories that seem to proliferate on all three major networks. So, let’s keep our fingers crossed for Andrea Mitchell and hope that she can hold her own – or move up to another level of national political reporting on NBC itself. She deserves no less.”

milking the american public . . .

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Not only has pop culture gone the way of a hand-wringing photo-op for anyone who might have a personal issue on national TV, it now appears that we will be subjected to carefully wrought (scripted) personal stories by political candidates in order to get our vote. And none other than in the bosom of motherhood, no less.

Case in point is this outline of Hillary Clinton’s approach as a candidate to milk her mother’s hardships as an unwanted child to convince people that she understands our problems.

Really?

How does the pathos of her grandmother’s rejection of her mother convince us that Mrs. Clinton will come up for a strategy to fight ISIS? What does she think about the world economy teetering, it seems, on the head of a Greek pin? Or, how about what is seeming like standard practice of white police forces abusing power all over the place until they get caught doing it on film?

Heck, we must be pretty gullible as the American public. At least, the politicos who are crafting a new campaign modus operandi sure seem to think so. Why don’t they just show tearjerker movies instead of campaigning in person?

I, for one, have a case of Hillary fatigue. Never mind keeping a lid on Bill. I wonder how many others share that perspective?